Not everyday is going to be great.  Not everyday your going to bounce out of bed and be so wonderfully happy that birds come and sit on your window sill.  There will be days when it takes all your energy just to keep going.  Some days you will be unhappy, angry, hurt, disappointed and confused.  Its ok to feel those days and honor yourself while in those moments.

I had one of those weeks.  I had placed my faith in someone who i thought would not let me down, and they did, badly.  Its hard to describe because its almost like im so hurt i can’t feel the hurt.  It’s like i have detached myself from it because the realisation that this happened to me would be too much for me to handle or even believe.

I have found that the best thing i have done for myself is give myself permission to be pissed.  Yes i said it.  Give yourself permission to be pissed off and stay in that space until you are ready to move on.  We are told as women that we should forgive and move on, and i agree with that completely.  But when i have been hurt, im gonna allow myself to wallow in that anger until im ready to move on.

It is also interesting that in my pissed off state, i have made some really good decisions.  I have cleaned my house and did so much washing, my son thought he walked into the wrong house.

Honor yourself enough to honor your feelings, whatever they may be.  There is always sunshine after rain, and rainbows, well we all know the better rainbows come after the biggest storms.

I  read somewhere to never underestimate the power of an extremely pissed off woman, Amen to that.  Now if you dont mind, i have a bathroom to scrub.

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